Starting Over

Yup. Sounds dramatic. It really isn’t. Im starting my blog over. Not my entire life.

First blog post. Well… again.

To be fair, I have had many many blogs and hundreds of posts, but I kinda just let them go. Sure I backed them up, but I see no reason to bring them back to the public at the moment. I kinda just let it go. I kinda like starting from scratch. It’s a good refresher to me. Every single December, before the new year. I back up my phone and then completely erase it. Its kinda awesome to just start over again. It feels like a fun new beginning.

This whole year has just been a whirlwind and I don’t even know where to start. To be honest. It kinda feels like starting over.

I will say, that the quarantine has made me finally sit down and really let me think about things. Personal things. Business things. Drag Things. Oreo cookie things. All the things. I’ve been working on this site rebuild on what feels like forever. I get into it. Then I don’t. I hate it, but it’s necessary.

I bought a home…. a lil casita.

It’s been a nice distraction to decorate and fix it up during this insane year.

I lost a light in my life. My nana. My wall is up and I keep putting up this front that this is just a part of life. But the moments when you really realize she is gone, truly affect me. It all get’s very quiet and dark. Her love for me truly was a catalyst for how I always try to do what I want to do, because I always had her support.

But a light in my life is that I became an uncle. And Peyton’s laugh, and even cries, bring me such unhinged joy that I cannot explain it in words that exist in this universe.

I mean.

That’s just a little start. lots of life changes. But if you are a photographer (or actually, any type of artist) that this Pandemic has really brought us new challenges we never expected.

So what now? What will you blog about gabriel?! I don’t know! I’ll probably do what I would always do

write about shit I want to and like.

I kinda hate structure. It’s like other photographers telling me I need to have ONE certain look for all my photos, or ONE topic to focus on when blogging.

I’m like….. Sorry that you are boring

But I am not that way :) I mean. I do drag.

2020 has been insane. How have you been coping?